Dey and Dee's Updates

CRASH! BANG! BOOM!

Oh what a week it's been - and it's only Wednesday! God please help me! I think the lead up to this week was my very busy schedule at the end of last week. But I was doing okay for the most part until Sunday. I had a very good and very difficult time at church. No need to get into it, but I left with a feeling of frustration and emptiness. I then proceeded to have a challenging afternoon/evening with the kids, particularly Simeon. Again, I won't get into it, but let's just say that after the 4th time of him peeing outside a diaper, usually on something that belonged to Esther (toy mat, bouncy chair, etc.), I lost it! I did not like the mother I saw myself being at that moment. Sim and I worked things out and after putting them to bed I was exhausted, physically and emotionally. I called my good friend Trish (mother of 5 young children) and asked her if I could pop in for a visit the next day. I went to bed with some hope in my heart.

Monday morning I first went to the church to do some aerobics with other moms. We had fun and worked hard! I packed the kids up to go, and proceeded to fall down a flight of stairs head first, carrying Esther. Thankfully, Simeon was behind me, not in front of me when I fell so he was uninvolved. Thankfully, Esther was buckled in securely in her well-padded carseat and I managed to hold it straight in the air so that she didn't flip over. All she experienced was a thud when it hit the floor and that produced quite a scare in her! I, on the other hand, was hurt pretty bad. Things could have been much worse, but my legs are pretty scraped/cut/burned and bruised. My knees are especially banged up and my right knee and ankle are pretty sore and swollen. I can now put more weight on my right foot, which hopefully means it isn't sprained! Anyways, as the adrenaline and scare of seriously injuring my child began to wear off, and my physical pain began to kick in, the tears began to flow. All someone had to do was look at me and I would begin to sob. I spent some time alone in the bathroom getting my legs bandaged up, thanks to Lil and Joc who took care of my kids for me. Some other moms helped carry my stuff out to the car for me and Jeff got me an ice pack. So, slightly recovered I headed to Lorette for a hair appointment.

A word of advice: don't get your hair cut when you are emotionally unstable! Okay, so it isn't too bad, but it is definitely going to take some getting used to. I told her to go ahead and cut it short, I needed a change. And she did! I think I will really like it as I get used to how to take care of it, but my first impression was, "Ah! What have I done!"

Well, my day does get better from here. I arrived at Trish's house ~ 3pm. I was so ready to sit down and have an honest heart to heart, and hopefully receive some wisdom and encouragement. Realizing that in order to be home before dark (they live in the country) I would have to leave in 1-2 hours, I decided to stay the night. Dey had an exam the next day so I knew he would be out late studying anyway. What a relief. It is so great to have friends who you can be completely honest and vulnerable with and know that they love you and will not judge you. They will speak the truth to you in love and not just give you pat answers. And they will sometimes just listen. So, after many tears and laughter, I went to sleep in a soft bed, still in alot of pain (from the fall) but more at peace.

As I drove home the next day, I remembered that I was co-leading the Breathe (mom's group) session on Wednesday. The topic? "The Emotional Landscape of Motherhood" Hello! Not sure if it was God preparing me or the enemy testing me, but it sure was humbling. We did have a great session, though, in my opinion, and it felt good to be able to share my recent adventures on this journey of motherhood. And nice to know that other moms have been there or are also there right now. The best part was finding God in the picture and realizing that my identity needs to be in Him. Reading His word sure does put things into perspective.

So, there is a piece in my life right now! Pray that my legs heal quickly because it isn't easy staying on top of my kids and house in an injured state! Thanks to Jodi who came over this afternoon and brought me food and helped me with some laundry! Please also pray for my mom who has been barely able to walk since the beginning of January due to inflammation in her knee joints. She is having a very painful procedure done tomorrow to hopefully help the situation. Thanks!

posted by Deanna Momtchilov @ 9:45 PM